Funk
I'm not actually depressed or down or anything, but in a funk all the same. I can't seem to really get going on anything. I've been sitting here pretty much all day, fucking around online, not really reading anything or doing anything, but lacking any drive to get up and get started on the stuff I need to get done around here. I have the urge to do so much in terms of organizing the house and spring cleaning (I did all my windows!) but can't seem to get started. I don't know where to begin and so I sit here, staring at the walls like a slack-jawed, uh, slackjaw. There may even be drool involved.
My knitting, similarly, is going nowhere. Over the past week or so I haven't done anything. Last night I knit a few rounds on a sock while watching reruns of CSI, but it was like I wasn't really knitting. I was just going through the motions, like how eating a ricecake isn't really eating. Every time I get the urge to pick up my knitting, I can't decide what to work on because nothing is near finishing and spending a couple of hours on a project seems pointless because it's not like I'm going to finish it. More slack-jawed staring, more drool.
What is wrong with me? I want to be invited to a party. Won't someone invite me to a party? I wish to get drunk.
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If I lived anywhere near you, I'd invite you to get drunk together. But virtual drunk isn't nearly as much fun, so I won't.
And I know what you mean, sometimes it's hard to get started. Can't you do the spring cleaning room by room, starting with the smallest?
marjon · Apr 20 · 3:33 PM
I was trying to do it project by project, so at least I got the windows done. But room by room is probably good too, as long as I don't start with the kitchen, or that's all I would clean, every day.
Move to Canada right away. You should be a neighbour instead of so far.
Maggie · Apr 20 · 3:44 PM
You should host your own party! :-) I know what it's like to be in a funk. I also know that getting your home in an order you can live with can reignite your creativity, so don't give up. Maybe you need some really lovely new yarn to inspire you!?
gaile · Apr 20 · 6:15 PM
Come party in Simcoe, woohoo... you know you wanna... we've got um... we've got um.... uh.... you mentioned slack jawed? There are some yokels...
god i need to move! I did have a job interview the other day in Toronto but... ahh... we'll see...wonder how expensive it is to live...my career path is not known for its high salary.
You are in a funk and I am facing early mid-life crisis/confusion, like to the max, totally.
Soosan · Apr 20 · 6:41 PM
The drive-in is open, yo! And Silent Hill is playing. But I work until 2:00AM on Saturday, so no boozy movie :/ Wow, that was pointless, and almost taunting, really.
We suck.
Nicci · Apr 20 · 8:06 PM
maggie,
thank you, thank you, thank you for your comment. your empathy, and sharing your story, is very much appreciated.
Ash · Apr 25 · 10:47 AM